One thing i really like bout china is the old people.
those 70 up. they are really very very nice, most of them at least.
I had quite alot of interaction with them these few weeks, and i find myself understanding them more, and hence liking them much more..
Sigh, maybe coz i havent been home for such a long time, their lil gestures like holding my hand, patting me on my back, touching my face makes me feel so comfortable and love. So slowly, i tried to open myself and hold them hands back, patting them on the back, holding them while they walk. And i really feel good bout doin so.
Coz it makes me feel like a grown up.hahaha.

sigh.but the more i feel for them, the more my heart aches for them. I really am quite affected when i hear things like they dun have enuff money to pay their bills, or even to pay for their chinese medicine which is already really cheap. it makes me feel vv helpless.and they're such nice pple. sighhhh..

anw, i was at the supermarket 2 days back, i bought lots of stuff so i could redeem a bottle of coke for 1 yuan, but i didnt want la. So the old lady at the back asked if i could redeem for her and so i redeem it for her.
anw we had a conversation la..
old lady:帮我换一下好吗？
me:好啊。。但冬天最好不要喝太多。。。
oldlady:是卖给我小孩喝的
me:哦。。 小孩更不应该喝那么多。。对小孩身体不好。。。
oldlady:哦。。。我小孩27 岁了。。哈哈
me:huh?哦27 了阿。。比我老。。那喝吧！

i find it quite farnie coz i was being really naggy bout asking her not to drink so much. coz being a patient of frequent stomachaches, i really do not encourage pple drinking cold drinks esp on winter. but i din expect me to discourage a stranger openly like that in public. hahaha..

and while we were doing our rounds 2 days back, there was this old lady whose temperature of both hand were different. so we went to touch her palm. And she held my hand really really tightly.and so i held hers back. it was a really good feeling, i dunno why.
also, last week while walking to sch, i chatted with this old lady who was goin to work. So we had a long chat...about hospitals, about singapore, about china etc etc.
Seriously, i really love all these old pple.

hmz..
getting a lil bored. bored!
chengs' in shanghai having fun.boohoohoo..and ive got lots to complain but no one to complain to! argh!

anw..my swelling is goin down a lil..its slow..but at least its goin down.

yday was a very fufilling day. Coz we had 周平安's and WBK's clinic to go to.
and i was really energetic yday..dunno why..so could absorb alot! and i felt good bout myself..it's like i can feel improving, and thanks to meiyun being my kaki!
it's really good to have someone who could exchange pointers all the time.yay!

okie!!

oh .anw my tic's booked! 22nd jan! yayy! when i land i'm chioning for bak chor mee!

and all the best to ah bui aka xf for his exams and barclays interview! u can do it!

argh.
my left cheek is damn swollen man. argh. thanks to that not very wise wisdom tooth of mine who doesnt know how to grow properly. i look like a pig now can!
and its damn painful i cant slp properly at night. sian.
it's really ugly.

omg omg omg.
and yday was a damn bad day.so i slept at 5pm hoping the day will pass quickly and hoping that when i wake up, the swelling would be gone from all those antibiotics.
but no! its more swollen than ever. when i go back spore, im goin to get it extracted!

Today is a happy day!
i dont remember being so happy since my parents left for Singapore,but, i dont know whats so happy about!
hahaha...maybe coz it snowed, and it was really really beautiful.
i get touched quite easily, and i was touched by the snow. how i iwsh my family and xf is here w me to see it...heehee

but nevertheless, im still happy.

Today's clinic was damn busy. Coz our digestive teacher just got filmed on tv. So his fans and patients came all the way from all parts of china to see whether he can treat their stomachaches..so we had almost 80 patients in a morning intead of the usual 20+.
and it was really tiring..i went to the toilet like 10 times to get away from the crowd.haha..when it finally ended, meiyun, jinju and me went outside to take pictures in the snow!!!
And when we were taking pictures, i commented that if only wbk was here, it'll be sooooo romantic..hahaha...meiyun glared and hit me coz i was too disgusting...hahaha
but i knew she secretly hoped for wbk to appear man!
10 mins later when we were still taking pictures, we actually saw WBK walking back to the sch...hahaha..3 of us shrieked out loud man. den we were pushing the camera to one another and wbk was reaching the main entrance!!! so i quickly ran up to him to say hi and ask him whether he wanted to take photos not! hahahaa..thanks goodness he was really really friendly!heehee...and we managed to take a couple of pics w him:> i din know why i had the courage..i guess it was really the snow, it made me really excited...my and jj couldnt stop laughing at me after that..but well.thanks to my courage we managed to get a shot w him can!

hahaha..the 3 of us love him man..he's our favourite teacher.and he's the best teacher around man!we're crashing his clinics every week even tho we've left.
but he's always really welcoming whenever he sees us so i dont see why not!
tom its fri and we get to crash again! yeahh!!

've been running a fever for the 3rd day now. i haven eaten anything much that my tummy is damn flat now la.haha
actually the symptoms felt like dengue. it's really on off fever. and it's usually like 9 in the morning and 6 in the evening. i was running a 39.5 fever last night. i could actually feel my whole body burning like crazy. it was really hot, like someone set me on fire. and i had several "hallucinations" like someone calling my name and yufei helping me change my quiltcover(ops, which she didnt)
haha

yday i perspired like crazy after i drank my fav teacher- Dr WBK's prescription ( plus a few western tablets la), chin ee called me and ask me to hold on den putting him on the fone, omg, i got the shock of my life la! i was so nervour i kept stammering can! hahaha,but i felt consoled and better after hearing his voice! hiakz!
den he commented to chin ee etc that i could be an actress!hohohoh, another thing which made me happy!(but nth to be proud of coz he said he could be an actor himself too-which we're all not vv agreeable on)
anw, chin was vv nice, she send my medicine home for me and updated news bout wbk..keeps me goin u see.
jl came to cook lunch and accompanied me the morning and noon. she's such a silly ger coz like at 12 she said she needa run some errands, so i asked what coz i knew she would be out buying me stuffs again. so she insisted its her own goods. but she came back with zero of her own goods and thousands of bread for me and fruit juice and veggies to keep me goin for the weekend. hahaha..she feels like my auntie who's always pampering me w goodies!

sigh, i dunno whether my fever 'll be back later..its kind of dreadful. sigh coz when the fever comes back...i'll be damn weak and cold.and 'll be in constant fear the heat'll fry my brain.and i so wanna tok to my parents,but i cant till i get myself fully recovered.dun wanna worry them.haiz.
really hope i dun get my housemates infected too. its really terrible. and i feel bad they gotta keep coming to my room. chengs had to help me rubbed my back yday coz i couldnt sweat.hahaha..and she was honest bout dettol-ing her hands.i could totally understand. because this virus is really highly contagious la. and the hospital is swept by hundreds of flu cases now.sigh, despite the fact that they'll get infected, they'll still check up on me. thanks once again!

hahaha....and meiyun was cooking porridge yday and she wanted to send to me. so did jinju who wanted to come and cook for both junling and me again. hahaha
u see..i can nv thank these pple enuff.
their lil gesture, always makes me feel vvvvv good. its like i can feel their warmth and sincerity. and to me, its always these things which made me feel better. i'm so thankful and grateful for the bunch of great friends around me who didnt abandon me when i need them. thanks pals:>

It really do suck to fall sick, esp when u're miles away from home.
but thank god i've got a bunch of great great wonderful friends w me who made me feel so much better i feel like crying already.

Yday i've got the worst 感冒 ever in my whole life. within seconds my body went feverish,muscles were aching VERY badly, and head was in throbbing pain. I tot i would be fine after drinking some herbal tea and a nap but when i woke up from my nap,my temp just went higher and my muscles were aching even badly.

Missed sch, and jinju and meiyun were the 1st of all to make me feel touched. I din tell my housemates i was feeling sick in case i worry them, and i feel quite paisei already that im always falling sick:< anw jinju called and msged me like a gazillion time to want to come up to cook lunch for me knowing no one isat home. But i really dun feel like eating and i din wanna pass any flu to her. but by noon, my pain was aching so bad i kept crying so i called xf. He made me feel a lil better but i was still in pain.the pain was really intense, i could feel it aching into my bones..luckily (and thank god) my saviour yufei came home at noon and was trying really hard to save me.
She helped me 捏脊 and massaged my back(oh but which left bruises on my back now..haha) plus giving up her only packet left of herbal tea and 葛根汤. actually it was the sight of her which made me feel better. I think when u r sick, all u need is a company, someone who cares,knowing that things would not go wrong w them around. yar, she made my homesickness better. den at 3, chengs came home early from sch too. Savious no.2:> and i get another session of 捏脊 and massage, plus more TLC. haha. so every half hr, they'll take turns to check up on me, top up my water, check my temperature etc. But my fever still din go down, in fact it went higher to 39. I knew something was really wrong when my temp din go down despite drinking 3 packets of herbal tea, 2 sachets of panadol flu, 3 panadol tablets..blah blah. normally i would have recovered after drinking one packet of herbal tea and a nap. So when i woke up at 8pm, i was really worried coz my head was frying.Chin ee msged to ask me quickly go down to the clinic to see a doc before my cough comes. yar, when i was thinkin bout whether to see a doc, junling appeared at my doorsteps. And i dunno why ,i started tearing at the sight of her. i think she really does give me the feeling of a family. and i was very touched to see her because she is sick herself, having the same flu. she looked at me and said that the symptoms are exactly the same so most likely its the very potent virus flu thats infecting lots of pple in the hospital. And we all suspect it was H1N1.
anw, she had hardly recover, coz she was coughing vv badly and i could see that he looked as weak as me..yar she told me that she came coz she knew i would be homesick and she just wanted to make things better for me.. seriously. seriously. what can i say?i mean having a friend like her despite her own illness, despite the possibility of getting infected again, she still braved the cold to send me medicine..

anw, i drank the chinese medicine and puke everything out later in the night. but i felt better after puking everything out coz my temp dropped amazingly. Even chengs was amazed coz she check up on me 1 hr after i puke(poor ger had to clean up after me-and i think she spent the last hr cleaning up the toilet:<)i was suddenly free from pain and my temp went down to 36. Initally i was still worried that it might be 回光返照。hahaha, seriously, i really though i was dying can. b4 my temp dropped, my body was aching to a point that except my hair, no where else wasnt painful.
yar, but now im feeling so so much better, excpet for a lil headache and backache(partly from the massage)..

yea, i just wanted to say how much these pple meant to me. Without them, i think i could have really died yday from home sickness and the pain. i'm really really grateful to them. thanks pals. thanks for making life in bj so wonderful.
and thanks xf for always, always being there for me.

yday i had the worst stomachache i had in mnths. argh.
i really should go do a checkup on mon.sigh, but part of the reason ive been procrastinating is coz iim really scared.
but yufei's really sweet.hahaha!
when i called her at home, she was like" im at home! why u call me??"
so i grumbled and told her i was having a bad stomachache so she quickly ran over to see me..hahaha..told her she could have my ginseng chicken i cooked in the morning coz my tummy's too painful to finish the rest. so after she had her dinner, she skipped to my room and told me my soup's really nice! hahaha...irritating~ argh!
kidding la, anw she cooked porridge for me later in the night even tho i told her ive no appetite..so she was like "just drink the porridge water la"

and i called xf like 20 times to whine.
i oso din know why i called him. its like he cant do anything bout my pain and it'll only worry him further, but i just feel like calling him. and even tho i dont even have the strength to hold my fone, i still didnt want to hang up..hahaha..
but thank god i awaes have him there whenever i needed him. sigh. one thing that ive been taking for granted..hai..i really really shud not do this anymore.

anyway im regaining my direction.
maybe my stomachache did bring something good. coz i was in bed for almost 24 hrs, i had lots of dreams. and so much was bout tcm. i'm obsessed, i know, but how can u be good in a thing u ain't obsessed with? im so glad im obsessed can!
xf praised me the other day~ he said he's always mentioning my passion bout tcm to his friends.he said that alot of pple are quite sad in a way that they're doing things they are not enjoying and i should really be very happy that im so passionate bout tcm. its the 5th yr now and im passion only grew stronger, so i know i can depend on this!
and my dad called the other day to tell me that his flu etc got better amazingly after he returned back to spore! when he was telling me maybe its due to the weather in bj, i reminded him that it might be my accupunture! hahaha, so he stopped and thought for a few mins, den he realised it might really have been due to my needles man! wah lau! i was quite sad that they totally forgot bout all the treatment ive done for them when they were here..hahaha..even tho i was only treating them as "guinea pigs", i did think carefully bout the points to poke can! hahaha. sigh. i miss them already.

okie, im goin to think further bout what im goin to do!

oh..havent blog for really long!

okie, parents came and left already. Was really really nice to see them, and i thoroughly enjoyed myself! but im missing them tho. hee,nvm, 'll see them again in 3 mnths time!

anw, more bout internship!
ended the internship at 肾内 and i think we really love our teachers! esp me and meiyun, we're crazy over him, and most of our classmates think we're crazy but we're still crazy over him! hahaha
but that's coz he's really one great great teacher! he's smart and really goodat what he's doing plus...he is very patient w the patients!(one impt character that are rearely seen w the china docs nowadays) he would extend his clinic hrs to make sure he get to see all the patients and see all the patients well. on top of that, even tho he's like really bz, he still made the effort to teach us as much as he could. the 3 weeks over there was the best amongst all that i've went!

so now im at 特需科，its the ward for the rich actually. those patients are mostly rich and powerful~ ya.
and im really lucky again to get my current teacher now.
she's been teaching me alot of things in the ward which other teachers couldnt be bothered. the kind of simple things which could have taken a shorter time if she had done it herself. but i think she taught me anw so that when i go to other 科，i could manage it better~its like she would rather teach me how to fish than to give me the fish. hahaha..and its farnie how sometimes i would get on her nerves like when she ask me to draw a diagonal line, i will draw it horizontal for her, messing the whole document! hahaha! and she will niao me for a min, den laugh at me again!..its really quite farnie.
so even tho i have like tons and tons of never ending tasks to do in the ward( havent been that busy the whole intersnhip),i am really thankful!
oh, and later i have to 交班，meaning in front of the whole crew(docs and nurses), i've to memorise and say out a new patient's case! it's really scary coz everything is in chinese and i cannot refer to anything. anw i did it once last week and this is my 2nd time so im less scared! aiiirght.:>

i hope internship continues to stay fufilling!

Went to the dentist in our hospital today. sigh, my gums' swollen. And there's like a big lump with yellow pus growing beside my gum.
Thats the result of delaying treatment. My gums always had problems, since dunno how mnay zillion years ago, and it bleeds every morning for the last 2 yrs. But yet i was always too lazy to visit a dentist, except the other time when i had 10 cavities! hohoho
anw, im lucky to not to have to wait, and it was done pretty fast. She did a 切开引流 for me. and it was damn damn bloody painful can. argh. It was so painful i actually teared. ( and i usually have very threshold for pain). sigh..and the meds were really ex, but compared to spore, it should be considered cheap la..
actually the whole point is..stop delaying treatment.
mine is just a small minor example. but there're so many big cases in the hospital that ive seen which all started from really minor. yar...sigh.
if only the preventive side was done better.
yar, so after the national celebrations, im goin to do more checkups man..hahaha..be really kiasu!

oh, and my parents are here.
its really amazing, i mean i havent seen them for 7 mnths, and when i saw them yday, things were exactly how it used to be. and we din feel like we havent seen one another for 7 mnths..

oh and siyin is really sweet! she baked a whole box of cookies for me! i was damn happy la! but my gums was too painful to eat alot, and my mom restricted me to eating only one...hiakz, but i ate like 10 more after she left! heehee..
sometimes i really deserve to have the swollen gums man..hahaha
and my dad lost alot of weight. sigh. i felt really bad that i wasnt around when he was sick. i could imagine how trrible it felt tho i couldnt really imagine the pain. hai...i needa quickly complete my studies and go back home.
but i needa go home a competent chinese physician.

life's been really busy intern-ing!
and i totally love 肾内！
heeeheee...:>

and today the dept head asked me to prescribe a 方剂 for a patient, and after he saw my prescription he said it was really good:>
heehee! yoohoo!!!
really encouraging and motivating! im getting more confident!